Saturday, February 13, 2016
FROM COURTNEY (the real favorite lol)
When we are younger we never even think of our parents or grandparents not being there. As we grow older we realize how truly deeply special and amazing they really were and are to us. If I could say to my Grandmda Jan another thing it would be I don't want you to go, but I know you can't stay. I want to always be able to hear your loud contagious laugh and the OH MY GOOOOOOSH!!!!!...... That You always use to say. I want to hear you say "Is this my favorite granddaughter" ...When ever I call you. I want to be able to have you see me off at the airport like you'd always do when I came for a visit. I want you to be able to give me angels on my birthday like you'd always do, but now you are my angel. I will miss all those things and most of all your hugs, hand holding and unconditional love you had for me. You truly are the depiction of a strong woman who's strength has came down for many generations and I'm so grateful to you for that. You truly showed us what a strong woman is suppose to be. You were so special to so many and you will always be special to me. I have a memory book I've been writing in dedicated to you and I'm dedicating some casino events for my charity in your name as well like I told you I would, I'm also going to be playing the lottery now, so please be my good luck angel. I promise to make you proud and to continue with my charity and ministry and giving and volunteering always. I can't say I'm ok with you being gone because I'm not, I don't think I ever will be, BUT you are in Paradise now and I'm beyond happy for you for that, you're finally home Grandma, you made it, and you had a long amazing life with beautiful children and grandchildren who love you and showed you that especially this last month everyone was so amazing and special for that. You're the reason all of us are here today. I celebrate your life and you being in Heaven, which is a paradise none of us can possibly imagine. A piece of my heart will be missing, a purple piece of it, but a peice of you will always remain there until I see you in paradise. Like I said Friday morning at 1am to you after you passed on into your paradise....I LOVE YOU GRANDMA AND I'LL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN.